Just finished re-watching ep11, I need moral support...
uhh this damn episode.. so heartwrenching it puts me off re-watching every single time
i feel SO fucking sorry for Jiang Cheng here and i don't like feeling that sorry for him because he would do it himself better than anyone, but oh dear boy is going through hell
i don't remember how different donghua shows this from the novel but in donghua the moment where he tries to strangle WWX looks like the breaking point for him to lose all critical thinking and channel all his rage to blame WWX for everything (which is understandable in the moment, but knowing it would stay that way for life it's just so sad to see)
And the way WWX is there trying to protect him while JC is blinded by grief... JC has all the rights to be mad, yell, cry, go crazy, feel sorry for himself, but for WWX it feels like he can't allow himself, even though he also lost family and home, he feels the blame and it's the burden he carries on his own while having to be the grownup of the two preventing JC from hot-headed decisions.
The scene with WWX quietly crying in the rain shows it so beautifully and is so heartbreaking, oh dear, that arc is a lot...
No conclusion, just ranting really because that whole arc breaks me more than anything else in this story