please help + vent
hai!! my name is nisa and I’d appreciate if you took a couple of mins to read through. Please understand I am NOT trying to self diagnose and I am just extremely confused with myself!!
i know i have adhd and ever since i got tested for it and they said I don’t have it, it’s been eating me alive. I also know that a huge factor that contributed to me not being diagnosed with adhd is because my doctor doesn’t even know that there are different types of adhd. My brother got diagnosed with innatentive ADHD a few years back, and he said that the chances of me having it are so high (and that he believes I in fact DO have innatentive adhd) because I relate to his exact same problems. You see, I’ve had high grades all my life. I’ve been a good student in school all my life. Unlike what ADHD is usually seen as, (people - especially boys, with bad grades who are not able to stay still and focused), I do not fit the criteria for that. I also believe that my doctor doesn’t believe I have adhd because im a girl. A girl with high grades, and a girl who is able to stay still. In reality, I can barely focus. Topics may seem too easy for me, and I doze off thinking of alternate universes or scenarios that completely make me forget im in class or learning something important. For some reason I feel affected that I am not properly diagnosed with ADHD because it feeds off of me every day and sometimes it’s so hard for me to focus and stay on track that all I can do is cry and wonder why I can never truly get help. For months I’ve been asking for a change in my doctor. Even though it seems small it affects me so much, because I KNOW that I have adhd, but my own doctor doesn’t believe me, and I just want to be normal for once. I’m so tired of feeling so out of place because I believe I have ADHD, and it’s so tiring.