u/obi_won_jabroni

My best friend got blackout drunk at a work party and told his coworker that he wanted to hook up with her and when she rejected him he called her a bitch lol. He’s so fucked and when he gets fired it will probably follow him in the industry he’s in. He blew up his life right now because he had one too many one night. Makes me so grateful I don’t drink anymore cause I’ve almost lost my job several times due to crazy antics at work parties. One time 5 security guards had to hold me down cause I got crazy and I still didn’t get fired. Never did anything to a coworker though so I was good. This morning I had a craving but pushed through it and said fuck alcohol and I’m so glad I didn’t cause I had the best day with my wife and dog sober. So glad I quit drinking.

I have been off 7 OH for 2 days now after a two day relapse where I took about 300mg a day. I quit for 5 days before that. I’ve been going 2-4 days off it for months now usually caving during work and getting back on it. I tried using just Kratom at work but after a few hours I crashed so hard with just Kratom. I’ve had plenty of opportunities to quit in the last 6 months and I failed every time. Well this time I plan to take the week off which would be 10 days because of my scheduled days off and use my PTO so I get paid. My job is pretty flexible but I’ve taken a lot of time off recently so I hope it’s okay. I’m going to dose this week at work if I’m not better by Thursday but just dose enough to stave off withdrawal. Then come Monday I’m going to quit. Use Kratom for a day or two to ease it and then use gabapentin for 2 days and then go cold turkey from there. I hope by the time 10 days is over my energy levels will improve a lot.

I plan on going to my parents as I’ve already told them and want accountability throughout my withdrawals. I’ll just watch movies and go for walks and take baths. I also have a heated blanket and a weighted blanket that help. I was addicted for 9 months the last two years, quit using ibogaine, then relapsed in September of last year. Since then I’ve been doing it every week but successfully quitting for 2 1/2 weeks one time with no withdrawal cause I switched to kratom and stopped. Now my usage has ramped up to 300-500mg a day at work for 4 days and then Kratom and gabapentin on my days off. I’m so tired of this cycle. I want to quit so bad so I’m going for it. I have a lot of support like a sponsor and the program, a therapist, and outpatient rehab that only sees me once a month, my parents, my wife, my friends and my dog. I’m going to lean on that and stay busy to fight cravings. I’m not worried about acutes as I’ve gone through them many times. I’m worried about the mental part and PAWS after.

Do you think this is a good plan?

The alternative to me is the sublocade route as it reduces cravings but I heard horror stories from the withdrawals from that.