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two weeks ago, I did TRE for 2 minutes then two days later I did 8, and I’ve been getting flooded with emotions, lots of crying, a new tic, lots of fear and reactivity. like it even changed something in my personality, I started sharing my feelings more, oversharing sometimes and then feeling a lot of shame about the stuff I shared. I haven’t been able to function well and it’s been intense.
I feel a bit better today because I finally managed to get decent sleep.

I should’ve been more careful. I just got too excited after the first session because I sensed that it works and I wanted more of that calm feeling. I don’t know if this was bad. it was overwhelming. I’m gonna wait a while before I try again and when I do try I’m gonna limit the shaking to 1 minute at first and then wait.

I’ve been gradually increasing my lithium dose and last week I arrived at what’s supposed to be the therapeutic dose for me. for the past month and a half and especially the past two weeks I’ve been feeling relatively stable mentally and mood-wise.

But one symptom I still have is feeling dysregulated and hypervigilent. Like despite having a good mood and feeling mentally calm, my body it’s like my body refuses to relax. I have this almo constant pressure in my head, and tightness and unease in the chest.

I don’t think I’ve ever experienced true stability or regulation before (maybe now I’m starting to feel stable?). I wonder if this dysregulated feeling is what was always there underneath the waves.

does anyone relate? What was your journey towards stability like?