how do i stop getting urges?
i'm currently 8 months clean, and im so scared of breaking that streak. it's the longest i've EVER been clean. but recently, i've been getting urges every day for hours at a time. i know its mostly due to things with my ex, but its still seriously hurting my mental health.
my ex sexually assaulted me, and since then i've had dreams of him stalking me, and appearing in my house with the intent to hurt me. these dreams and thoughts have been getting worse due to this upcoming school year, as the school he's going to is extremely close to my house and he knows where I live.
I've had days where I sit right next to something sharp and can't move until the urges pass, i can't look at my scars without getting VIVID images of relapsing stuck in my head.
how do i stop this and get better?