If not, would you be willing to try?
Was binge watching 90day finace clips on youtube (yes, i like trash tv shows) and it got me wondering whether i should give dating overseas a try.
I'm too ugly to attract someone face-to-face, and using datingapps within my country doesn't seem like an option.
Would like to hear from fellow FAs.
This is basically every other girl in college vs my ugly self. The side by side comparison made me comprehend men's pov more clearly. Honestly i feel too disgusting to be even considered as the same species as them.
(Sorry for the bad drawing. I'm terrible at art lol)
I know ppl here will say "use dating apps", but what if i live in a culture where using dating apps as a young woman is stigmatized. I came across a comment in r/korea that explained it almost perfectly (which i will attach in the post). The act of using dating apps itself would make my situation even worse.
There are people who say looks aren't everything, but you have to reach some kind of level of attractiveness in order to be considered to be a potential partener. I'm so ugly that i'm either invisible or disgusting in other's eyes. Good personality would make me be considered as a friend, but it won't make me dateable.
I wear makeup and i have good hygiene. I'm fat now but things weren't better for me when i weighed 7kgs less last year. ( 165cm/53kg back then). Maybe the only way for me to be even visible to men is a bunch of plastic surgeries and a boob job (since i'm completely flat chested).
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I(21f)'ve never been diagnosed because even going to the psychiatrist is a huge risk for me.
My family thinks having a mental illness diagnosis will ruin one's life. Plus, they firmly believe i have no reason to be unhappy.
I've been wanting to die for over 4yrs now. When i told her i think i need professional help, she got angry at me and asked me "why can't you just be grateful".
When i reached my limit and told my mom i wanted to kms, she told me to do it because someone that weak and spoilt as me doesn't deserve to live anyway. (So i tried and failed.)
If i get a diagnosis, i'll be seen as a "spoiled weakling". They'll see it as an embarrassment and hate me for it.
I'll have to risk being cut off, getting kicked out of the house, and probably get yelled at for being so ungrateful. And that is the better scenario, since i'm not sure whether they'll hit me for being a spoiled brat.
It's hard to get treatment when it means i have to give up my relationship with my family