How long to wait until Aya?
Hi All,
In Mexico -- came down here for a ibogaine/5meo healing journey. Not psychedelically naive - lots of work with psilocybin.
Had a very meh ibogaine experience (the place I went, my body rejected the flood dose as it didn't feel like a safe environment). I had an initial and a booster dose -- approximately 9 mg /kg over 5 days. Then I did the 5meo (my first time) -- and was hoping to breakthrough. I had did 2, then 6, then 11mg of the pure molecule.
The first two times were initially panic and fear, and then intense somatic release and deep peace unlike anything I never felt. But no non-duality. Then the third dose was the exact same as the second two, and I don't remember anything of non-duality... the facilitator said I passed out for 5 minutes -- which I don't remember. Honestly very upset that I didn't get to have the big experience. This was Friday last week.
I have been having some small reactivations where I breath deeply and they end up being somewhat pleasant.
I have a lot to work on from the two experiences, but am in a place where I have an opportunity to do a native ayahuasca ceremony on Saturday but I am wondering about the line between safe and stupid and too much to integrate.
Curious for some thoughts about safety from some experts. My first ayahuasca experience was years ago and the container was terrible. This wouldn't be that.
Thanks everyone.