u/pawsockies

this boy yesterday told me he has a crush on me and hes around my age. I already knew just based onnthe way he acted around me and all of his friends really wanted us to get together but I had to say no because I would ruin his life. Im extremely messy when I love, im super codependent, and im overwhelmingly jealous to the point the only way I can be satisfied would be if he cut off EVERYONE. which im obviously not gonna do because thats fucked up. Point is - i cant date him. I dont wanna hurt him, or anyone. I only date shitty people older than me because atleast they deserve it yk? My ex is 16 n im 13 n im literally just waiting for him to ckme back in my life cause hes a shitty person but atleast i can be a shitty person back.

anyways i need a cigarette

I randomly just remembered

I knew a groomer/extorter when I was 11ish and he was 16 or 17 and he had forced me to send some nsfw pictures and the way i coped was by obsessing over him and texting him everyday and loving his attention. One day I told him I loved him. He told me I didn't know what that means. He was right. I don't. I didn't. I didn't know what it was.

I have a history being groomed and I've been like unable to break that cycle for years bc I seek it out and get obsessive

I'm 13 I turned 13 in February and my ex was 15 and just turned 16 a month ago

We were tgthr since December until April

My friends say it's weird and me and him still sext and flirt alot but it doesn't feel wrong bc he's kind of my age

Idk

I'm a joke I can't stop stalking his socials and talking about him all the time even tho I say I hate him so much I just want him to notice me again I miss him I miss his attention.

i cant cut i cant smoke i need someone i crave someone i crave someone so much

and no random reddit pedophile reading this that person wont be you im very picky

i crave attention I CRAVE ATTENTION i need attention i crave sweet realize i cant CUT i cant SMOKE i want someone i want someone to twll me how pretty i am and to text me everyday and to own me but I CANT because its bad and i want to i want to so bad.

https://www.reddit.com/r/groomingvictim/s/HOk7JhIGXu

follow up to this post i fucked up really bad. He went inactive and we hadnt talked for a month. I had a boyfriend and i was doing really well in live. Just joined track, jusr started reading again, etc.

I emailed him. For me. To get it off my chest. I said I hoped he was doing well and that I missed him. I ended it with 'love u'. I didnt expect him to reply. I wanted to but I didnt as well.

He emailed back a day later and ended it with 'loveu2'. I didnt reply because I didnt know what to say. He added me the day after that.

We've been talking and he was a little sexual but I didnt think anything of it.

Until yesterday.

I'd been arguing with my bf all night and... he (not my bf, the other guy) was high (cocaine) and very drunk. It started with him telling me he wanted to fuck me when I was 18 (im 13, hes 17) which quickly led to him telling me he wanted to do things to me.. now

He started calling me his girl and saying he'd always protect me and then everything started coming out from both of us. I told him I loved him and he told me he loved me.

Things aren't looking good with my bf either.

I know its wrong but

I can't get my mind off him

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Everlasted has existed for 3 years and counting! After a 6 month long break we are finally back with a brand new server! :). We offer a safe space to express your opinions (without getting us banned), endless banter, FOUR vc channels, minimal rules, confession bot to share your deepest secrets, truth or dare, and best of all... Tristan <3. We are open to partnering and all suggestions!!

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Everlasted has existed for 3 years and counting! After a 6 month long break we are finally back with a brand new server! :). We offer a safe space to express your opinions (without getting us banned), endless banter, FOUR vc channels, minimal rules, confession bot to share your deepest secrets, truth or dare, and best of all... Tristan <3. We are open to partnering and all suggestions!!

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Everlasted has existed for 3 years and counting! After a 6 month long break we are finally back with a brand new server! :). We offer a safe space to express your opinions (without getting us banned), endless banter, FOUR vc channels, minimal rules, confession bot to share your deepest secrets, truth or dare, and best of all... Tristan <3. We are open to partnering and all suggestions!!

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