Major anxiety about work tomorrow
So my (22F) LO is my boss (49M). This is my first full time job and the infatuation started probably a few weeks after I started working here. He’s married with children and so I feel deep shame and self- loathing about my limerence, but as I’m sure all of you know, I just can’t control my feelings no matter how hard I try. I try not to think about his personal life because it upsets me and because it makes me feel even more weird, but this past weekend I was feeling so sad and lonely and finally looked at his wife and kids’ on social media to see pictures. I didn’t even look at every picture and read the captions because it was too upsetting to me but now I’m scared that I’m going to show up as a suggested person on their instagrams, they’re going to know who I am, tell him, and then he will think I’m a creep. I had vaguely heard of this happening when you insta stalk people beforehand but in the moment I didn’t even think about it and just lost control. It wasn’t till afterwards that I started looking stuff up on the internet about instagram suggesting your account to people you stalk and now I’m worried sick. I should’ve blocked them right after I did it but now I’m worried that they’ll look at my page again (if it’s been suggested), see that I’ve blocked them, and then things will get even weirder. I feel horrible. Does anyone have advice? Am I freaking out unnecessarily?