u/pinacoladathrowup

My sweet baby boy is the most wonderful, awesome little guy ever. But sleep has always been a struggle (for me). The only time he ever slept through the night was when he was sick, and even then he woke up once or twice. My son wakes anywhere from 3-8+ times in a night just to nurse.

He resettles quickly most of the time, but he definitely uses the boob to connect most of his sleep cycles and it is hard. Sometimes he just prepositions himself or closes his eyes...but mostly it is boob that saves the day

I want to wean around 18m-2y when I can communicate to him a little better about why boob is going away (since it is his main source of comfort), rather than now when he can't really understand why I would be weaning. ​I still am struggling a lot though with this crappy sleep and I would like to hear from any moms in the same boat or if it ever gets better lol

My son has never been a great sleeper. We started cosleeping around 3.5 months because he was waking every hour and I was falling asleep standing up. He is 13months now and if he wakes up 3 times, I feel well rested. It is that bad.

Cosleeping/breastsleeping definitely helped in that I can immediately go back to bed when he wakes after latching, but I function horribly with the frequent interruptions. I get noticeably angry and more agitated/panicky after really hard nights. I seriously cannot keep doing this. (Especially recently now that he's been doing split nights)​

I barely go out too because he used to scream in the car up until like 11 months and I get such horrible anxiety literally just putting him in his car seat. My husband's off days are the only time I get out...when we do errands. I am going crazy, and have no mom friends...my mom lives 40mins away...I see my MIL on Sundays

My husband helps whenever I ask but I have to ask of course. And whenever he does a task there is always 30% I have to do as well to finish said task. Anyway I am just exhausted. I am against sleep training and it's too late to put him in a crib imo because he is a climber already. I am also 4'10 and never liked transferring anyway.

I just cant wait until it fucking gets better. I dont want to wean right now because it is the only way I quickly put him down to sleep and he goes right back to bed after waking. I'd rather wait until he can understand the bandaid/broken explanation method for weaning around 18m-2y. I love my beautiful sweet boy, I just am so freaking exhausted. I hate this season so much.