u/pinkbraincells

I messed up, well technically I didn’t because I was on birth control but you get the gist. My period was five days late which it has never been, I have been nauseated asf and an emotional mess. I decided to take a test at 6:00 pm today and I didn’t wait for the recommended three minutes…..I saw one line and thanked the Lord and continued with my activities.

Fast forward like three hours later I was talking to my man about it and we were discussing how grateful we were and what we would have done if it would have been positive (we both agreed that not keeping it would be wise). The call ends and I decided to look at the test again to see how close of a call it was. Shock on my ass, two dark lines.

I have been thinking about what to do and I simply cannot keep it. I am already helping my brother take care of his child so I know better than to add another child to the equation. I’ve checked online and the options all seem extremely expensive. I’ve seen the pills range from around 15Gs which I can’t afford due to the fact that I am basically raising my brother’s child. If anyone has access to or knows of someone who has reasonably priced options, please let me know. I’m trying to do this ASAP before I overthink myself into a frenzy🙏🏾

Throw away account because I don’t want to have this record on me lol. I’ve been thinking up and down trying to come up with a reason as to why my “man” is acting the way he acts but I simply just cannot so here I am….

We have been talking for about 15 months now, officially dating for the last five months. I expressed that I would like a proper proposal, nothing too extravagant but something sentimentally significant. He harped on and on about how money was always tight so I just gave in and let it go.

We live approximately 12 kilometers from each other but I see him once a month or even less. The constant reason “I have money issues” “I have so much going on” etc etc just nonsense. We haven’t been on a proper date yet. I understand having money issues because his parents aren’t alive and he is supporting his sibling but surely not every single day? He will talk about making plans and hanging out but the only reason this man ever pulls up on me is to hit 💀

I’ve been as understanding as possible. I’ll talk to him for hours about his wellbeing, go out of my way to do small gestures like gifts and cook from my house and send it to him. I sometimes even help out financially (I’m just doing online jobs to make ends meet) because I understand that this is someone trying to figure out life and whats the point of being together if we can’t help each other, right? Lately its just been too much, he will call and ask for lunch ati he wants take out. His communication is very wanting, I’m the one who keeps on reaching out all the time and the questions from me is….Genuinely, what tf else could a man want?