u/pizzapicnic

Sometimes that reason is cause God hates you.

I have no family..no friends. Nothing. All I want is a place to live. I almost had it. I put an offer on a condo then got laid off literally seconds after signing the contract.

I spent the last 6 years caring for my father. I'm only 32. He had me late. I don't regret it. I thank God everyday for giving him a long life so I can hang out w him. He passed 4 months and 3 weeks ago. Reverse mortgage on the house. It's in shambles already. I was supposed to close in 10 days. Now? Idk. I asked my boss to just keep me on until I close. They said "well see". This will ruin my life, I can float with our money work but I need to have them verify my work. And I don't think they will. I don't even have air conditioning in this house anymore, it's 92 degrees every day.

Everyone always tells me bad things happen for a reason. Sure. But sometimes that reason is cause God likes to laugh.

I'm a pretty girl. Everyone thinks my life is awesome and easy. Not really. Every girl hates me and men like to humble me before I even open my mouth. I was viciously abused as a child, lost my virginity to rape and then assaulted multiple times after. Got so sick I almost died, tried to kill myself because of it. I just want a place to live. I'm lucky enough I have enough money for a 45% down payment on a place , otherwise I'd never be approved for a mortgage. But now since I got laid off I can't even try anymore. I'm fucked!! Life is just holding your breath till you jump to the next stepping stone. Id just like a moment to breathe? I want to move on and live my life. But I'm stuck in the house, squatting basically. It's absolute chaos in this house, it's hot as balls and it smells like him too. Stay positive? I'm trying. But let's be realistic. I'm fucked