















did some (eye for eye) snooping into conversations between my step dad and mom. full of him being extremely distressed at and mocking my body to a disgusting degree, expressing how he can't handle being in the same room as me the few times I dare to leave my room, and just general hatred, all while my mom passively agrees or ignores him. They don’t want me here, they hate looking at me.
I definitely felt like I wasn't welcome at home but good god I've seen enough to verify it now. I need to get out of here desperately, but leaving early means missing out on a lot of work and money, and having to pay for a place to stay, so I suppose I will live in fear in anticipation of September. I should survive 8 weeks, although I do need to find a place for then still.
i hate what I’ve done to my family