u/probablynothing739

I want to be able to move my tags around without having to delete a wall of tags and put them all back! when I forget a tag somewhere I would much rather be putting “hurt/comfort” next to “angst with a happy ending” at the top rather than in the middle of tagging “oral sex” and “multiple orgasms” from the later chapters because I realized a bit late that “hurt/comfort” is an accurate tag.
If I had one wish for posting to Ao3 it would be that I could drag my tags around so they could be in a specific and more pleasing order, and I apologize to my readers who are seeing random ass tags sandwiched between two that are clearly related. that is all

I’ve known I’m genderqueer for about 4 years now give or take, and I can’t for the life of me figure out what would make me feel best in my body. maybe it’s just because I hate a hassle and dealing with the medical processes in my country but it never felt like a pressing enough issue for me to pursue things like T or surgeries (even stepping into an office for me is like $200 minimum and I have no primary doctors). it’s so expensive for me to do literally anything, and I can’t tell if I accepted my looks because of that disdain or because I genuinely do like my features.

I think recently I’m getting to a point where I actually am interested in pushing past the hassle to get on T or make some type of change though. I just don’t know. right now I’ve been trying to work out more with masculinizing routines but I guess I’m just wondering if there’s anyone genderfluid/queer/nonbinary who was really on the fence about what they wanted and how you became sure of it?

everyone feels differently about these things I just know it’ll come down to “if you want it you want it” but just patterns or signs for that, the type of discomforts felt, how often they occur, etc. would honestly help me figure out what’s going on in my head I think. since I’m def more fluid gender wise it’s hard to tell how strongly I feel one way or another.

side note if anyone has good workout routines for chest+arms I’d be extremely grateful lmfao

I feel like they can be so small, but so memorable, and I’m wondering what specific points people felt themselves fully cut off.

mine was when I was listening to a guest pastor (who I hated) talk about how ‘the path to heaven is narrow, and not many will make it’ along with the classic hot/cold/lukewarm Christian examples. I remember him saying “If you’re not on fire for Christ, you’re taking the easy wide path.” and in my head I was like right. guess that’s what I’m doing, then! it was a total snap moment. even though I’d say I’m still interested in aspects of Christianity, after that moment I fully knew I couldn’t buy it anymore