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Crucifix Cannon & Sister Revelator, Concept/Art :D
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Crucifix Cannon & Sister Revelator, Concept/Art :D

I remember talk of people wanting a sniper unit of sisters who were blind and aimy by faith (also horse cavalry).

Why not a psyker-powered, big ass Melta/Flamer? The sisters are previously blind or made blind purely by the fire of the cannon itself, melting through their eyelids or visors. The cannon is carried and maneuvered by sister novitiates (or repentia?) and lead by a sister revelator.

for gameplay it would probably require expending a miracle dice to fire or sometihng.

u/proteinLoL — 20 hours ago
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Battle Sister's Squad finished

posted my first model previously, finally finished the whole squad :) i really regret using white :D happy with how they turned out and i do like my color scheme

u/proteinLoL — 13 days ago
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First Model & Battle Sister Paint

Not sure how to do the eyes, planning to do a plasma blue paint. I also considered red or a bright green.

I would like to add a wash to it to make the white seem less like a primer layer (it is). should i use Nuln oil or some other color to add more depth? currently it feels super flat and toy-y

im planning to do an assortment of gun colors cus i think it will be cute to have a bunch of different gun colors idk.

lmk if you have any advice or criticism i can take into account for my future sisters ^.^

u/proteinLoL — 26 days ago
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reaching incorrect conclusions/solutions on becoming comfortable with dying

ive always struggled with death since acknowledging it at the age of 7-8. almost all quiet moments lead to thinking about it which has pushed me into constantly forcing myself to interface into something at every moment. whenever i tell anyone they don't really believe me.

in 2020 i would smoke weed and get high almost every day during quarantine, i took a break from school because the online was miserable. im an engineering major so science interests me, i was watching pop science videos on string theory by myself, and the topic of infinity is brought up. i think the drugs pushed me too deep into a spiral and i spent about a year or two in bed feeling like time was instant, i would dwell on memories where i tell myself "tomorrow you will remember this and it will feel like an instant".

during this mental breakdown it felt like the only way to become comfortable with dying is forcing yourself to become suicidal, destroying your life to that point. i just can't believe anyone is actually comfortable with death while being happy, it all feels an act, and all feels like cope.

i know it's bad thinking, i don't think i ever would, but i find myself self destructing and trying to destroy relationships and i am always worried i am trying to become comfortable with dying. it's all so confusing and i feel crazy and it doesn't help everything in my life is falling apart. the night terrors are so awful.

i was born a 13th child and i hate that i was so close to not being born and i hate being forced to live i hate that i had no choice in it and am forced to have it ripped away and i hate that i cannot talk about anything to people i know without feeling like i will be institutionalized

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u/proteinLoL — 1 month ago