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- Give a general description of yourself. How old are you?
idk how to answer this. i think i'm kinda shallow. i guess i like metal and grace and the texas chain saw massacre and horror in general. i think i'm one of the most contradictory people on earth though. oops. i'm really into extreme stuff. i value freedom a lot and hate when people tell me how to identify, what to believe in, etc. no clue if anything i say makes sense but i think it works for typing. i'm very opinionated. most things i can't explain why exactly, i can only guess. most of the time it just feels right and only later i try to rationalize it. i'm very fascinated by the absurd and the nonsensical.
- What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not? If you are not working, what kind of job do you want to do or what are you studying?
i'm studying natural sciences. not sure what exactly i want to work as. originally i wanted to be a translator (cause i'm bilingual) but got pushed towards pharmacy then i wanted to do clinical writing, then wanted to become an autopsy technician. who knows. at the moment i think i want to work in a lab and analyze stuff like tissue or something i don't know.
- Describe your childhood/upbringing. Did it have any kind of ideological or structured influence? How did you respond to it? Did you have any significant negative experiences that may have affected how you think or behave?
i don't really remember my childhood. but i remember i grew up kinda lonely. didn't really have friends. not particularly close to my parents. i also grew up as an only child. i was weird as a kid. i liked fnaf, creepypasta, my little pony, uh that one tf2 mlp parody elements of insanity i remember dearly. yk.
- Do you have any mental or physical health issues that might affect how think or choose to live? Provide a brief description.
i have borderline, avoidant and histrionic personality disorder. idk what that makes for but yk, it sure affects something. i also have new daily persistent headaches. basically my head started hurting one day for apparently no reason and just stuck around every single day of my life. i've been suffering from it since i was 13. i can't really seek treatment for anything. i think ndph made me kinda apathetic. not cause ndph does that, but i suffer, my thought process was like no one gives a shit about me, why should i care, yk?
- If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
i don't know. like physically alone but can talk to people over phone i think refreshed. if no interaction, a mix. i'm used to loneliness though so either way it works.
- What is your relation with movement and your surroundings? For instance do you prefer a sport or outdoors event? If an outdoors event what is it? And why? If not what type of activities do you tend to engage?
i don't really go outside, but i like going outdoors. i'm kinda chronically online. but i'd go outside more if i lived in a place where you actually had something to see.
- How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
i'm quite curious when it comes to concepts. can't explain it, certain concepts just fascinate me.
- Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
i'm not good at leadership. when doing a group project or something i always ask people like "what do i do? what now?", yk?
- Do you prefer hands on activities or working with your hands in some form? Describe your activities.
hand on, yes! i think i'd go insane if my job was just mental. i need something to occupy both. like not field work, but something.
- Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
somewhat artistic. i'd draw a lot growing up. at like 10 i started drawing anime kind of portraits but i stopped in 8th grade cause i had an exam and i never really improved. i do make rentries sometimes and like graphics for rentries and stuff.
- What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
past is something i can't change and generally accept that it's what made me, well, me. present, hi, we're here. future is unpredictable. can't explain, just feels like it.
- How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
depends on what. if it's small i help them cause it costs me nothing to help them.
- Do you need logical consistency in your life?
yes. it's not a fundamental need but i do need consistency.
- How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
not sure. but work smart, not hard.
- Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
i don't know. i can be controlling, i don't know why.
- What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
i collect CDs. music is a huge part of my identity.
- What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
i'm a visual learner. i have trouble understanding stuff cause words feel too abstract. i need to see it for me to actually understand.
- How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
wing it. i do try to plan, but that often makes me delay the task.
- What's important to you and why?
freedom and autonomy. i don't know why, it just feels right. it feels necessary.
- What are your aspirations?
my what? if this is supposed to mean inspirations, spite. i often live out of spite.
- What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
home invasion. that's TERRIFYING.
- What do the "highs" in your life look like?
acceptance. idk, not too sure.
- What do the "lows" in your life look like?
delusion. i get thoughts that are really irrational. mostly related to religion.
- How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
if a car passes by, i'm the first person to look at it. i just do this naturally. there's no thought behind it, i just do it. idk what that says. i guess mostly attached.
- Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
i think i'd go insane, i need something to do. to answer the question though: morals, ethics, everything that went wrong in my life, my identity, etc.
- How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
i don't really think about decisions so i'm often kinda impulsive. i do sometimes change my mind. 50/50
27.How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
i'm very in touch with my emotions and stuff. i guess not long. i tend to trust my gut.
- Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
sometimes. if they manage to convince me. but i don't usually unless i myself decide fair enough. i speak my mind whether people like it or not.
- Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why would you?
YES. authority needs to be questioned. can't stand people who expect me to follow their rules if they bring me no benefit. i tend to break mostly social norms, not laws though. i follow laws because they give me freedom.
- What is the ideal life, in your opinion?
hmm. i don't know. i never really thought about that.