u/quirked_up_cracker

Just found this site called cinejoy. Looks and works basically the same as Cineby and no ads (so far). I’m about to watch at least A movie on it before I got to bed, if I remember I’ll edit this in the morning and tell yall how good it actually works.

Edit: worked great! Very few buffers, no skipping, no ads, full screen worked, decent ui, website wasn’t too choppy, and it even keeps your place when you close out of the movie. Def recommend, tho someone did say cinejoy is owned by Cineby and might shut down when it does, but I’m pretty sure it’s either not or uses a different source or something cause it’s not totally fucking balked like the other Cineby sites are rn

This might end up being more of just kinda a dump than a question but oh well I have no where else to say this so. Ok so I’ve been out since middle school; when I first came out it was as gay, and while i definitely like men, I’m also definitely not gay and it was a rushed, uninformed, and uncontemplated coming out. I have gone through many ups and downs and backs and forths in my journey of figuring out my sexuality, and here’s what I know for sure: I generally like women more than men, my sexuality is not a big part of my personality or beliefs it is simply just another trait of mine like the color of my eyes or my laugh, i don’t like labeling it (no offense to anyone but i do lowkey think labels for sexualities are dumb and sort of objectify or sensationalize queerness, if those are the right words ), i generally have the same preferences but certain aspects of my sexuality tend to be very fluid, and i do not identify with really any queer archetypes/sterotypes, and I definitely have at least some internalized homophobia even tho in my heart i have accepted who I am and know that there’s no issue with it and there’s nothing to really be afraid of in relation to it (in my situation at least). For a while now tho I’ve been going through something of a second gay panic; That was brought on by me being in my first serious queer relationship, and also, almost embarrassingly watching more queer media, specifically…heated rivalry… ANYWAY, my ex-boyfriend (we recently broke up after 6 months of dating) is ftm trans, we’ll call him Tim, I loved him a whole lot, like literally never felt that before, couldn’t have been anything other than love type shit, and especially after we broke up I realized how different it felt than being in love with a girl. I’ve been in love with at least one girl, and while the situations were holy different that’s definitely not all it was. Part of it feeling the way it did definitely was just cause as people we were very compatible and good for each other (don’t ask me why we broke up, idrk it wasn’t my choice) but what tipped me off that that’s not all it was, was that a little before, during, and after the relationship (literally as I’m writing this I’m watching heated rivalry for about the 100 millionth time) I was getting BACK into queer media. For a while I was, for lack of a better word, avoiding my queerness. I didn’t hide it or deny it, I sorta just didn’t act on it. This was in some ways good cause I had made it apart of my personality on a very cringe level when I was in middle school, and I lowkey just needed to figure some shit out, but it also let my uncomfortability with my queerness fester. Basically tho, I started reading my gay little WEBTOON comics again, binging loads of queer films and show, was less ig afraid of wearing more “fruity” stuff, and generally feeling more comfortable in the fact I am queer; the new gay panic was sort of subtle at first, but especially as my relationship went on with Tim and more so after he broke up with me and the way it hit me, it made its way to the front of my mind; just how I feel when I consume these things, the way I want what the boys in these stories have, I’m thinking I maybe like guys more than I was letting myself believe, and it kinda ig hurts? But in a good and bad way. Idk, I thought I was done with this shit, and with some other stuff going on it’s just very confusing and maybe starting to be overwhelming. If I had to explain how it feels my sexuality works ig I would say that I would rather have sex with a girl, but I’d rather fall in love with a boy. But yeah, anyway, idrk what do with myself, and ig just what’s y’all’s insight?