Dilemma: Sanyaas vs. Gruhastra
If Moksha is the sole purpose of life, sanyaasa seems like the obvious conclusion. Why keep one foot in samsara at all?
But here's my honest hesitation: my upbringing was nowhere near a renunciate life. And I fear that if I renounce, my "detachment" would quietly decay into tamas – inertia dressed up as vairagya.
The Gita keeps pointing me toward karma yoga instead: stay in the world, act selflessly, surrender the fruits. But I don't know if that's clarity or the mind negotiating terms to stay comfortable
For anyone who's lived inside this question: did clarity come before you chose or only after you'd lived the choice for a while? How did you decide?