u/rawshowman

I know I like things but I don’t know why or I can’t delve into why but i know there’s a reason. Other people express why they like the same thing and I get insecure because I’m scared I don’t like it as much because I can’t explain things. I can’t explain movie plots or musical plots or songs or artists I like but some movies/musicals I just feel so connected to and I feel them in my soul and I wish I could explain why but I can’t right now. I feel so undeveloped compared to everyone else. It’s all blurry up here. :( And I can’t explain why I feel the way I do or even how I feel when I feel something. there’s a big dissonance between everything in me. I just feel very stupid! I want to be able to give my thoughts on things and I worry I don’t observe enough or don’t take things in because I’m in another space mentally? I don’t know. I just am really anxious!!! A lot of the time! pls give me tips:-/ this humongously ruins my life and sense of self!!!

I am twenty two and a girl btw if that’s necessary info?:-0 (people usually say ”hi I’m 22 F” in threads)

Hi. I’m a 22 y/o girl. I grew up with a mom who’s a classically trained singer. People often say she has a very beautiful voice and she does. And I like to sing too and am in musical theatre school. But I’m stuck in a really bad spiral:( I’m insecure of singing at home and training at home because I feel like there’s a barrier. It doesn’t lie in my nature to take up space. And when my mom sings at home and sings so much better than me I don’t feel like I can sing at home. And how do I become my own singer and feel okay with me and my own talents. And how do I not compare myself to my mom and avoid comparisons by other people? I feel so guilty and evil over being jealous of something like this. She is insecure about her own voice too and she doesn’t talk to me a lot about singing and it feels like I can’t talk to her about it. Could anyone help me? Please don’t judge me too hard, this is very sensitive for me to write. I just don’t know where to sing or where to take up space.

I had a crush on a guy who I fumbled hard because I got too anxious to talk to him and the vibe was weird between us. Now I'll never see him again because he left. I sent him a follow request on instagram and after a week he declined lol. So yeah, fumbled. But I dream a lot about him. And in the dreams he's either just out of reach or really far away. But always distant and cold or unreadable. Like in real life. This has been occurring for 4 months! This night it was different. He was kind and warm in energy and we actually spoke. He asked me if I had sent a follow request and said he was sorry and that he always accepts them when he sees them. So corny, I'm 22 years old by the way which makes it even corniER. But anyway. Why did his dream energy shift like that? Why were the crush dream rules broken? In what way is my subconscious coping that made me dream like that? I don't know if this is the wrong subreddit, people probably post crazy stuff in here, this is so vanilla milk bread. But if anyone has some idea...let me knourrrw.