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I was so worried that birth control would mess up my supply and I’d need to stop nursing. Well, jokes on me because I’m 25 weeks postpartum, 5 weeks pregnant, and all I can find is that my supply will dry up during pregnancy. 🙃

I know there will be positives with having babies close in age (and I’ve had pregnancy losses previously, so I may be worrying for nothing) but I’m so so sad that I won’t be able to nurse my current baby as long as I hoped (current baby will be 14mo when new baby comes, was hoping to nurse until 24mo).

I never expected to love nursing as much as I do — I look forward to getting home from work to nurse my baby and don’t mind when she’s a boobie barnacle on fussy nights. I really dread losing supply and losing that connection.

Anyone with babies close in age have any tips on nursing while pregnant, especially when their older baby was under 1?

My BPD sister’s (mid-20s) favorite person is our baby sister (late teens/early 20s). She is so dependent on baby sister to manage her emotions and holds her hostage with suicide threats. I’ve tried to get baby sister to separate herself but she really buys into BPDS’s black and white thinking, especially since they moved out of my parents’ house together.

I’m kinda done with BPDS’s drama after being her enemy for our whole lives but I was open to reconnecting after she knitted my baby a whole infant set while I was pregnant. But then she didn’t show up to the time/place where they were supposed to meet and obviously avoided me at recent family gatherings. I heard from the grapevine that she’s not wanting to meet my baby and avoiding me at family gatherings because I “need to apologize”.

Things I need to apologize for:

- Telling baby sister I was pregnant first so I could ask baby sister how I should tell BPDS I was pregnant;

- Taking a few days to thank BPDS for the knitted baby set;

- Suggesting that baby sister stop living with BPDS (last suggested in Jan 2025 because it was poorly received by baby sister);

- Telling baby sister and BPDS that they’re codependent after they said that they couldn’t meet or talk unless the other could come (last tried to get alone time with either in Oct 2024);

- Telling her in Oct 2024 that getting a puppy (that baby sister had to care for) was selfish when they already had 2 dogs that they struggled to care for;

- Not apologizing and recanting my claim that she was selfish when she said she got the dog to avoid committing suicide.

I also have apparently been ignoring BPDS’s calls and texts to have a conversation about the above (lie; she hasn’t reached out and I only know the grievances from the family grapevine).

I think that even if I apologize, she’ll find a new reason to hate me next week. I really wish I could have a relationship with my sisters but it’s hard on baby sister to have a relationship with me and any effort I try to mend things with BPDS is villainized.