u/ridheehee

Hi everyone!

I’m graduating from uni in March and I’m thinking of flying to Rishikesh and getting a yoga teacher training in April before I start my next degree or job. How is the weather, crowd and overall vibe in April? Is it too sunny and hot or is it bearable? For context I live in Western Europe and I’m not sure how different the weather would be compared to where I live.

Thanks in advance! Also if anyone has any local tips, please feel free to share them 🫶🏻

We’ve had arguments where i knew what I said would hurt him, and I still proceeded to say those ugly things. My nervous system was overloaded, I get that, but I don’t understand why I did that. I’m taking therapy and have my next session in a couple of weeks. I will obviously bring it up. I love him, it isn’t a “fear of abandonment“ bond where I’m scared of being alone. it’s been 13 months but I still don’t trust him. I don’t know what to do. He isn’t doing anything wrong

I am in my early 20s and my boyfriend is 8 years older than me. We both are university students, I'm finishing my bachelors and he is doing his masters. We have been together for a year now and initially the frequency of physical intimacy was good. We have both been in relationships, he has obviously been through more relationships (committed, flings, situationships) than I have. I've only been in committed relationships before ... in high school and in the start of uni.

Now the thing is that he does not want to have sex at all. We kiss, but he wouldn't even make-out with me (longer kisses and other stuff, not necessarily sex.. he would not do any of that as well). He is a good boyfriend in other aspects, we are happy, he is kind and considerate and takes care of me, and everything should be good but there is a silent resentment in me because of this, I feel like something is missing. This resentment initially made me feel like I am not attractive enough for him, something that I am over now. But it made me cry so much, have sleepless nights because wdym my own boyfriend doesnt want me lol... I had to restrict all his ex-flings because why would he sleep with them and not with me. It was messing with my mental health a lot. I am also taking therapy (for other reasons) but I am conflicted to bring this up with my therapist because I want to maintain my boundaries and I am not comfortable.

I talked to him about it a few times and says he is too stressed (which is valid, he's going through a lot), but this "stressful situation" has no signs of ending. The last time our sex life was normal was probably Nov 2025, and after that we had sex once in April but it was terrible for me lol. And then we didn't again. He does not have ED or other issues.

He talks about marrying me (I can already feel yall rolling your eyes LMAO), and initially I was very excited and happy about it but now something just feels off.

I'm not really sure what I should do.. because the relationship is good but something feels off, I definitely dont want to be in this situation but I dont want to dump him. He seems happy and I can see him getting more enthusiastic about us every day (posting me on his story, making me meet his friends, his behavior with me) and that makes me feel guilty.

Also if you are a man and are going to text me, or if this is making you think I'm easy or vulnerable or some shit, I am not so GTFO. I am in a relationship and I love my guy.

Edit: Last week I caught him doing it "solo" (ifykyk) with AI images of women who look nothing like me. I didn't catch him in the act but I saw those images because we share the same tool. He told me that he is still physically attracted to me so it has nothing to do with me. I find it really weird but I told him its fine and stuff and let it go, even consoled him because he was embarrased. Am I being too judgmental if I think it's so fucking weird and lowk disgusting?