My sister hugged me out of nowhere today and I cried
Just need to vent this somewhere because I’m sitting here trying to process it and it hit me way harder than I expected.
Long story short I’ve always been super touch-starved. I'm 21M, never been in a relationship, and I literally sleep hugging a pillow every single night just imagining what it’s like to actually cuddle with someone who wants to be there ( I know it's pathetic ).
My family is not affectionate at all I used to try and initiate hugs with them a lot but they never really give that energy back Eventually I think my brain just kind of shut down and I stopped caring or expecting anything from them.
But today, my sister came up and just hugged me out of nowhere. Completely on her own.
The exact second she did it I instantly started tearing up and had to quickly hide from her so she wouldn’t see me literally crying over a simple hug.
It made me realize how brutal touch starvation actually is. There’s a massive difference between asking for a hug and someone actually choosing to give you one just because.
Idk, I’m still trying to calm down but I just wanted to throw this out there. If anyone else feels totally isolated or starved for affection you’re definitely not the only one It’s a heavy weight to carry.