I think I may have an eating disorder
I think I might have binge eating disorder. When I’m not eating I think about eating. It’s the only thing that seems to bring me this special kind of comfort I’m constantly craving. I hate my body so much. I don’t fit into anything other than lounge clothes. I hate how my face is getting fatter and fatter. I feel so worthless and weak. I know I should work out too but my body feels so exhausted all the time and I don’t even know where to start. I don’t feel like I really have the support from my family, they kind of enable it or give unhealthy advice (like “skip meals” kind of advice).
I have a lot of issues when it comes to food, textures and anxiety. I was labeled a “picky eater” growing up. So trying to figure out a healthier diet also feels so daunting.