I'm feeling really hopeless, being in the "I'm going to die alone" kind of state of mind, even when I know that you can live a satisfying life and rely purely on friendships. With that being said, I still crave love, obviously – without sex, but is there a chance to find someone as a sex-negative and sex-repulsed person? Do you have a significant other? If so, how does it look like?
I was recently talking to an allosexual girl about my feelings on sexuality and romance, so I mentioned that I'm almost sure that I'm asexual. She suggested that I could be just demisexual and haven't met the right person. I don't know, maybe. I'm only 19, yet there's zero sexuality in me and there has never been.
However, it got me thinking – is there a way to truly make a distinction between a demisexual who's never developed a connection deep enough for sexuality to kick in and a regular asexual person?
Have you developed any while growing up? I only (sorta) had one. It's kinda strange to me how many others have.
I saw an ai generated pornographic video on reddit and it was so gross but I've never seen anything this bad that it has become stuck in my head. I want to forget it but I can't and I feel nauseous because of that. It's sickening that some people like this stuff.