u/rootbeersneer

every now and then i risk everything i’ve worked so hard building up,
like my sanity, my confidence, my self-esteem & physique,
to sell you the pretty package of a healed romantic mourning your absence for weeks;
betting my all on the odds that i not only love you, but you’d risk it all for us too

i bet you’d laugh at my optimism in being dealt a fair hand,
or for painting the truth like a pig in lipstick;
i’m cushioning for when reality rears a fixed-head
so i don’t drown in more debt won gambling my heart yet again

I think I’m falling for you, and I wish we had gotten to know each other as intimately as we do now when we lived minutes from each other

im happy i did it! i cried for the first few weeks, but honestly, all of the ghosting you did made me so accustomed to heartbreak that 2 weeks later i was kinda over it. i started going out, working out, buying things for myself, studying, working, & making new friends :) i have them to thank for helping me regain my confidence and strength after you tore me apart for 4-5 years. i also don’t have to pay them like you have to for them to stick around, so that’s kinda cool!

im glad i realized my value & worth because you deserved somebody with a heart just as black as yours! i regret not dumping you 4 years ago, but i learned a lot from this minor heartbreak:

1. you are not the “best man” ill ever be with. who knew i was so likable & cute i could pull this many suitors so easily? :)
2. you loved me more because i got over you in 2 weeks
3. im entering a new chapter of my life and im excited you’re not in it

unlike you, im not looking for other people and distractions to pick up the pieces YOU left behind (another reason why i left btw). im pretty content knowing i can pull guys 10x better than you on every aspect you were most critical of yourself about (some of who you know)! but im working on myself & my career until i find my true soulmate.

so yeah, thinks have been great! ill start keeping you posted with biannual Reddit posts about my life since you stalk me and my friend’s socials everyday.

bye! loser

am i a horrible friend if i ask you out
or am i missing out on a chance if i don’t
i feel like this is our chance but im nervous
i don’t know if you like me, and i don’t know where we stand
decisions decisions

i hate everything you did to me despite knowing i was sensitive and fragile to begin with. it’s been 4 years and you’ve ruined my life. when i die i will haunt you and your stupid family for the pain you made me endure

If your ego is too big to say sorry for what you did or reach out for forgiveness and fix what you started, then you deserve nothing but pain & more