u/rottinggfiggss

im a freshman (18 yrs old) sfsu student moving into sf this fall. i hoping to find a job in food service w heavy tips but im open to other suggestions!

i have a lot of in resume, ive working for a bay area- based cafe bakery / farmers market, i’ve work at starbucks for 6+ months and its a really busy store, busiest in my town so ik how to get moving. i’ve also worked three other retail jobs during summers and holidays. on top of this, i also have experience w photographing events, food safety certification, and participated in clubs & sports in hs but im sure that part doesn’t matter in college or jobs.

what places or jobs do you recommend? i need 25-32 hours a week & $20/hr minimum. but im flexible getting more or less. hoping morning or evening shifts i hate mid day but thats just a preference. im willing to commute a little as well to north sf or even pacifica. please let me know!!

genuinely what do you do when it’s not that you don’t want to be alive but that you are uncomfortable with it??

i’ve reached a point of i’m not exactly sure but maybe some kind of anxiety or depression?? nothing bad has happened to be over the last three months i just work & go to school.

recently i find myself feeling uncomfortable with being alive. i feel like im missing this feeling or passion that doesn’t exist. almost like im trying to think of a color that doesn’t exist. or its like watching a movie that i’m not interested in.

i take 40mg of vyvanse & sometimes drink or smoke but rarely

how do i get rid of it pls what do i do