I’m craving a baconator but I just cannot wait 50 minutes in line just to be told that they can’t serve anything.
I’ve been burned too many times, is it still possible to obtain food from any of them? I’m in uptown for reference
Something about Form, apg, Tommy and Trippy dominating the scene gave this game so much life.
I swear like 90% of the player base were Optic fans. Even my friends and I who stopped playing Infinite after a few seasons, always tuned in to watch Optic dominate the majors.
Then they fell apart against Faze, made the absolute worst decision in dropping apg for Penguin, and they were never the same again.
The fandom tanked, the view counts tanked and I’m not sure why. It’s like those 4 were the only likable people in the scene
On Saturday I had hit 5 weeks. My longest clean streak by far, but the pressure was starting to mount.
I went to the gym yesterday and I saw what was my penultimate weakness of a body type in a woman. She was wearing bright clothes too, and I just could not look away. The energy started channeling like crazy and I knew I was screwing myself by continuing to look.
I tried to transmute the energy into the workout but by that point the visual was just seared into my brain. I had looked too long for my sensitive brain/eyes. I drove home and I was praying but could not stop thinking about what I saw.
It’s crazy, I never thought I could be overcome like this. Shows how far I really have to go.
Anyway, that night I had drinks with my baby mama but I still had no intention of releasing. I went to bed without praying and when I woke up I had released sooo much in my boxers I thought I pissed.
I immediately felt the loss of urges and grip strength, which I noticed always goes first when I relapse.
I fell back to sleep and had a dream of my front door being flung open. Which was weird because my dog would normally bark her ass off… but she didn’t make a peep.
I called out to her, and for a moment nothing happened. But then she came running into my bedroom, shaking in fear. That’s when I woke up.
I fell back asleep again and saw this weird looking creature in my kitchen. I have no idea what it is, but maybe it’s some sort succubus. Honestly it doesn’t really matter what it is.
I realized that wet dreams are relapses because of conscious decisions we make throughout the day.
Maybe you’re not PMOing, but SR makes you conscious. And consciously fantasizing leads to wet dreams. However it’s also not something to beat yourself up over, because it’s a journey. This is hard for a reason, if it weren’t so difficult the benefits wouldn’t be so incredible.
About 2 weeks in, I noticed when I was at the gym, all the people who mentally edge.
Especially the guys who do the alpha male strutting shit, and I’m not going to lie, I used to do it to. Maybe it’s natural when you get a nice pump and that testosterone boost from it.
But that moment when I noticed it, I just started avoiding looking in the mirror or trying to maintain eye contact or look tough or whatever.
Now I’m a roughly month in and the mental edging is tough. While I don’t lust the way I was before, I’ll be running and I still notice a cute girl and have the old “oh is she looking at me?”
I really want to not care, I know this is a lifelong process and I am definitely happy with the progress, but wondering if anyone has any advice that helped them