u/salad_knife

I’m white. I want to clarify that I am not upset whatsoever; this is a genuine inquiry. I am not here to be angry; I am here to learn.

So far, I have only received 2 accusations of performative antiracism, but they felt baseless. I like to watch black people’s videos on TikTok, process what they said, and leave a comment with my own way of understanding it in hopes of helping other white people expand their antiracism. That’s what has caught me these 2 accusations of performative antiracism/“not all white people” behavior.

I completely understand why POC accuse white people of performative antiracism because it is very prevalent, but, when I get accused of it, how should I respond to it?

Ignoring it feels wrong, but, denying it also feels wrong, even though I am genuinely interested in expanding my antiracism. I promise that I am genuinely trying to expand my antiracism.

I have made a texture pack for vanilla Minecraft before, but, how do I make a texture pack for ATM 10? I am trying to change Suspicious Clay and Suspicious Soul Sand.

I’m on TikTok and my FYP shows me a lot of different black creators talking about struggles they face because of white people.

I’m white and I have two adopted siblings who are black, a brother and a sister. I figure I should probably help fight racism by getting active on social media: sharing black creators’ content, providing black people with insights I’ve noticed by living in white spaces, and trying to help by providing alternative explanations in the comments on black creators’ videos because it feels like too many white people only listen to other white people about racism, and I know some people just lurk in the comments. I have also posted some videos with epiphanies I’ve had that I’ve felt were valuable to share to help fight racism, but I set those to private after an exchange I had with another commenter.

On that video, I had commented, “‘I’m white and I’m not like that-‘ THIS ISN’T ABOUT US, ASHLEY!” to which someone replied, “You’re doing the same thing 😭.”

I realized I could try explaining my intention, but I remembered seeing a video talking about impact mattering more than intention, so I thought it was best to remove my comment altogether. I have also quit commenting my alternative explanations on black creators’ videos because I started thinking maybe I’m talking over them even if I am trying to help. I still repost black creators’ content.

I have good intentions, but I’m worried about having the wrong impact. Impact is far more important than intention, so… what should I do?

What sentence do I say to my therapist to be like, “Hey, there are other people in my head?”