u/samsg1

I just lost the love of my life. I’m heartbroken, my future seems undecided and in limbo and my compulsions are now just SOOOOO much stronger and worse😭😭😭😭

Even worse is I found a letter while moving out I’d written to future when I was 13 saying “I hope you have stopped your ‘picky land’” which is what I used to call the area on my scalp where all this began when I was 10. I am now 39. Three decades😓😓😓

I have covered the single mirror in my home where I now live alone. I just chucked the two needles I owned for picking off my balcony into the trees below.

I want to retry a low dose of NAC tomorrow and I hope I don’t have trouble breathing like last tine I tried it two years ago.

If I seem to have an allergic reaction again I will book an appointment to consult about my OCD this week; maybe SSRIs are the way.

Regardless. I WILL get on top of this. I can’t keep damaging my skin. I can forgive myself for the past three decades and can forgive the scars I already have, but I think this is the point I’m putting my foot down and MUST do something about it.

Thank you for reading and love to all ❤️

Our lovebird Longhorns after four babies made a Mountain!!??❤️❤️❤️

I would very much like if we could pick up rocks outside our home meadows! Or if they were buyable in shops like the tree stump; I want to make a full circular rock garden please!

Found while grazing

I tried googling in Japanese but I couldn’t find anything useful. I’m not even sure what this is called in either Japanese or English, but the sliding door net thing has come off its rails and I am struggling to get it back on. I found a thing in the top on both sides that can be pushed down, so I tried pushing those down and putting it back in the from the top, but no bueno. I live alone and have no help. I want to sleep with ventilation before it gets too hot at night, so please help with YouTube links or an explanation- I feel so dumb 😭