u/saturnintaurus

saturday was my birthday and i got together with some of my girl friends, we ate some food, had some drinks, they ended up convincing me to get a makeover and surprisingly enough they actually made me not look so much like a pig in a lipstick, i even managed to get an ok picture of me, first one in forever. i even got my first insta dm from a guy! felt like the universe giving me a birthday present, i was sooo over the moon

yesterday i went on a date with the dm guy and his expression fell the minute he saw me in person. at least he tried to be respectful during the date, but i just knew he was going to block me right after and what do you know, he did just that. normally i wouldn't even care anymore cause i'm so used to that being the case but... ugh. i haven't felt this bad in years, and i think it was the "getting a little bit of hope and instantly being brought back to reality" thing that really messed me up.

anyway... one more year of this bullshit. i'm 26 now and really not looking forward to possibly 50 more years of this. if i could at least accept reality and stop allowing myself to give in to hope, but goddamn it why is that so hard to do

ok, hear me out: i want a villain-turned-love interest story but what i REALLY want is a rug pull moment. i want to start watching something and go "oh here we go it couldn't be more obvious these two will end up together" and then half a season later be like "wtf the villain is the endgame love interest?????"

now, i now that there's a lot of villainous love interests, especially in chinese bls which are my favorites. famously, "mistakenly saving the villain". but like... it's in the title. we know the villain is the endgame love interest. i want to be shocked.

so just to be clear: i would love to hear about a bl that builds up one romantic lead as strongly as possible, very much in your face, like no one could possibly think there's any other endgame, and then i want the mc to turn around and go "oh no actually i like that asshole over there"

can't believe this is the example i'm giving but... zukaang. those vibes. please <3