u/scalestripe

Looks like I’ve found my people. Hi everyone.

I’ve had some weird anomalous experiences kicked off by CE-5, mostly ranging from neutral to negative and very averse to telling me a consistent and wholly truthful story. Idk if the prison planet or Gnosticism model is accurate, I don’t have those minutiae learned. But I know there is a lot behind the veil up to very bad things.

I turned to the ‘beyond’ because I’ve hit a bit of a dead end in my own life. I ran out of resources and options and so, despite being a lifelong atheist, I looked to the sky. And it answered. I had never felt such hope and happiness in my life. I wept. Then continued experiences made it clear to me that it’s all a farce: at least too much of it to trust anything on the other side at face value. Realizing this about my last resort genuinely almost ended me.

Since then I’ve tried modified contact meditations, the gateway tapes, more meditations, magic, etc. Eyebrow-raising things occasionally happen, yet…I can’t say any of it has fundamentally changed much.

After reaching similar conclusions, have any of you still found success in interacting with the anomalous to your benefit or the betterment of humanity/life? If so, what have you done that’s worked well for you?

Just wondering if anyone has any experience with what’s in the title. Mostly come from a background of confusing, negative, or neutral experiences. In the peak period of weirdness, I ended up developing a weird (for my experience, but pretty normal looking) mark on my left forearm on the topside, 1.5-2 inches down from the elbow pit. Looks like an innocuous little wart, I guess. Maybe 0.5-0.75 cm in diameter. Slightly different color than the rest of my skin (pinkish vs the usual sickly pale). Have not had any similar marks or many skin marks at all before or after this one besides occasional small brown freckles so I picked up on it right away. I’ve noticed it tingles during certain weird experiences (e.g., hypnagogic “hallucination” of a voice right before sleep, then the mark tingling). Other times I’ve noticed it randomly tingling or itching. Anyone have something similar and any info on this kind of thing? Just curious.

Venting, I guess. Had some anomalous experiences, but that’s neither here nor there. Also really not one for the cosmic oneness bliss train myself. I am not one with any piece of the cosmos that sighed with a soft smile at the holocaust (assuming, of course, anything could have done anything about it). Put a lot of effort into trying to grasp it all. Conflicting endless stories and theories, bizarre experiences that leave only enough to clarify the existence of the anomalous but clearly prove nothing, remarkable synchronicities that imply a powerful flood of power that exists that is used to…ensure life is fundamentally exactly the same despite everything, etc. I’d always been atheist before all this, but really hoped when I’d started prodding the veil that I might find the adults in the room somewhere. Lo and behold, there apparently are none. Sucks. The end.