Hello! I’ve recently been blessed with moths appearing in my life and passing away near my apartment. I have both of their bodies still and was wondering if there is anyone in the quad cities who would be able to pin them for me? I’ve always wanted framed bugs for my wall and it feels like such a golden opportunity to have both come into my life so recently.
Thank you!
I keep going back and forth on whether or not I should post this but I quite frankly am at my wits end. I just want to scream into the abyss. I mostly am just asking for an ear at this point, especially from Catholic women. Anyways, I knew from the beginning my boyfriend (30M) struggled with lust. I (30F) caught him watching porn within the first few weeks of dating. Tonight I found his underwear that he had used to finish in while he was in the shower because I went to put away the nail clippers I was using.
We do live together, and I have been wanting to move out for quite some time now and every time I get cold feet. He does not want me to move out because the only place I could move into is with my friend who is a guy. I’ve lived with him before, we lived together while we were in college for about a year or so, and we’ve been good friends since we were 15/16.
My boyfriend and I do not have sex, we have fallen to temptation at times and have sexually pleased each other, and we have been together for a little over a year and a half. Quite frankly, I’m sick of being made a fool of. I’m sick of constantly thinking/noticing he’s looking at other women sexually, what he looks at each time he goes to the bathroom, or what he’s doing when I’m not around. I just want to remove myself entirely and leave this apartment.
This is more broad of a statement but I’m so sick of men being bound by lust. It’s so annoying, irritating, disgusting, pathetic, and sad. I’ve only known one man on a personal level, and one on an intimate level, who did not struggle with it. Granted the one who I dated struggled with other heavy sins, but nonetheless he was very disciplined when it came to lust and other things. (He was a boxer, reads a lot, is in med school etc.)
Knowing that if it does not work out between me and my current boyfriend that still majority of men, even Catholic men grapple with lust. It makes me want to be a nun because it honestly feels so much easier and better. My spouse will literally never hurt me in anyway because I would literally be married to Christ. I know a vocation isn’t easy, so the fact that I want to run to the convent so desperately means I know it isn’t for me. I just don’t understand what to do and I feel defeated. I can’t make him not be lustful. I can’t not be hurt each time I catch him. I don’t understand the point of it all. I’m just tired. I do love him and I love many other qualities about him. This is just really heavy is all.
Also I go to my priest for spiritual direction if anyone is wondering. He has helped me a lot. It’s just that after catching him yet again tonight has really sent me over the edge and I just wanted to let it out. The feeling of defeat has seeped into my spiritual life as well. Everything is just heavy now. Thanks for taking the time to read and God bless.