u/shiny__chaos

I CAN T STAND THIS MISERABLE HELL ANYMORE AND IT S RUINING MY RELATIONSHIP AND DOCTORS ARE SO EXPENSIVE AND DISINTERESTED UGHHHHH.

Please, if you have any ideas, share them, I am desperate.

Sooooo I had hypertonic pelvic floor but still managed to have sex (stretching and deep breaths helped). I also have interstitial cystitis and a very sensitive tissue soooo no lubricants, but it was fine. Sex was good. Yey!!!!

Boom! Recurrent candida. 4 episodes in 6 months. Albicanis. Itchy, but still, we could have sex. When we had sex for too long and it got painful… next day candida hit us in the face, but it was fine.

HOWEVER! 3 months ago… I was treated from candida albicanis, I looked just fine down there according to my doc, BUT I FELT IMMENSE BURNING PAIN WITH PENETRATION. Hahahhaha. Glabrata was confirmed :)
3 months later, still glabrata, no sex, still massive burning pain.

I go to another doctor… to talk about my pain. He says I have pudendal neuralgia while i have almost none of the symptoms and vestibulodinia fits best. SOOOO HE PRESCRIBES ORAL LYRICA THAT MIGHT CAUSE ADDICTION AND WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS?!?! + “ughhh ignore the candida, it has nothing to do with it🙄🙄🙄”

What do I do? Do I take Lyrica? Do I go to another doctor? I am so tired.

Pcos. Interstitial cystitis. RECURRENT CANDIDA GLABRATA. Hypertonic pelvic floor.

+ my BA exam coming so I am really stressed out by graduation

+ a LOVELY BOYFRIEND who pretends not to mind not having sex for the past TWO MONTHS. (i feel like burning)

I feel terrible and I don t know what to do. Doctors keep prescribing different things and they don t care much and barely look at my case fully and the more they mess up, THE MORE I FEEL IT.

I can t stand it anymore, it is a lot.

Have you guys ever had multiple problems co existing? What would you do? You ever had glabrata? How do you have sex?

We dated for about a year and are engaged.

Now, it is a high age gap relationship, the relationship was since the very beginning stressful, with many people disapproving of it and with a looooooot of social pressure surrounding it.

The thing is…. i am a highly anxious individual. Highly anxious, always tense, I have always been this way. I always had a tendency of avoiding conflicts so I am a bit like a submissive puppy when I feel like conflicts might arise, it s enough to tell me I spilled something on the floor and it upset you and poof! Like a 5 year old, I get scared and get stiff and paralyzed. He kept on trying to help me with this, but it is tough, because he is an individual that constantly gets upset (he gets back to normal 3 seconds later), but these little things… always get me tense and crying and then I get angry at myself for being so sensitive and for taking everything too seriously.

Social pressure + sensitivity + my pelvic issues (I always had them) getting worse (interstitial cystitis aka burning urethra and vaginismus aka nothing getting in) + MONTHLY YEAST INFECTIONS SINCE WE MET!!! (All these conditions highly impacted by stress) + PCOS + A really important exam for my career coming up in a few weeks…. All this is scaring me. Terribly.

I can t have sex. I am stressed. My body is in a terrible state… and I end up wondering “does it even matter if we love each other at this point? Or should I just let it go? One less thing to stress over…”

We have so many gorgeous plans for these next months… and he made my life great in so many ways, I am so greatful to have such an extraordinary guy in my life…