u/shlarpflarp

I’ve been experiencing what I think is OCD for over a month now and it’s been so mentally exhausting. However, there are real issues and feelings that feel so real and a part of me. I really need someone to talk to about this. This isn’t me seeking reassurance, I just need someone to listen and see my issues from a clearer mindset.

It’s going to be A LOT to read, so please don’t bother messaging me if you don’t want to read a lot or help. It’s probably going to be very annoying.

My bf followed this girl on tiktok and I saw she was following him too. I looked at her recent videos and she’s a very pretty girl and she made this video of her lip syncing and some cleavage was showing. I looked in the comments and he commented this gif of a guy jerking off. My heart sank and I felt sick but now im trying to justify it or make excuses for him. He’s always been so sweet and respectful to me but this has me second guessing everything. Am I overthinking this? How do I bring it up to him?

Edit: got rid of the micro cheating question. I’m aware that’s not a real term and it’s stupid. It’s just me trying to justify this but I know it’s wrong.