u/shyt1

I'm going to die alone. I'm too fucking ugly and depressed. It's out of my hands. I'm wondering if anyone has any advice on how to cope with this feeling when I hit my lowest point? It feels like everything is pointless and I can't find enjoyment in anything when it hits. I always just sit around trying my best to fall asleep but since I have insomnia it's often impossible.

Please don't suggest therapy. It might work for others but it doesn't work for me.

I'm a 29yo male and I've been on 2 dates in my entire life, both going nowhere. I'm sick of hearing the same old advice;

'It'll happen when you least expect it'

'You just gotta keep putting yourself out there'

'Looks don't matter'

That last one especially pisses me off. Yes they fucking do. I can't get dates because of it. Maybe if I get to know a girl well enough she'll look past that, but how the hell are they supposed to get to know me when I've been told multiple times that I look ugly, scary, and intimidating? Kidnap someone until they develop stockholm syndrome?

I'm at my fucking wit's end. I'm so sick of seeing literally everyone else being happy in relationships like it's the easiest thing in the world. I have friends, but I so desperately crave just one girl to look at me and think that I'm good enough. How could I possibly love myself when everyone else has repeatedly decided that I'm unworthy of love? This aching loneliness envelops my entire life and I can't find joy in anything anymore. What's the point?