I remember watching an opera called Goplana when I was young (in polish, based off the book Balladyna, I think composers name started with a Z?) and I tried to look for it online but couldn't find anything aside from 3 recordings on a pay-walled site. Does anyone know where else to look?
I've been trying to listen to it for roughly a month now. Can't make it past stage 2 without feeling really distraught, even the so called "light hearted" stage of stage 1 makes me feel nauseous and anxious, maybe I screwed up my listening experience by reading about the album before listening but I just can't do it. I made it to track 2 of stage 3 and just turned off the music and cried, no one I know has Alzheimers but its just something about the music that puts me in a melancholic mood for the rest of the day, is it worth trying to get through the album or should I just save myself the grief?