u/silvxr_b1txs

i want so badly to shift and see Yachiyo and Mifuyu, even if i am a girl i still want to see them, living breathing, speaking and laughing. i love them so much i just want to be with them, i know this sounds childish but i want so desperately to escape this reality and all the memories from it. i just want to see Yachiyo and Mifuyu and to be a magical girl forever, i want to explore so many different realities. i don't know why i cant shift i believe in it wholeheartedly, i affirm, i use subliminals, i've tried everything i just want to see them i'm so tired of this boring reality, doing the same thing over and over. at this point i might just give up.

i (13f) got discord after tiktok, obviously because i wanted to make online friends and stuff, and also to contact my bestfriend and cousin because they moved away. and obviously me making online friends.. i met the wrong guy, also he was around 14-15. and we got pretty close and stuff. so i remember one day him asking me if i really actually enjoyed him and i said yes and he told me if you really are my friend you'd send me nudes, and when i said nty he said ok ill just go cut myself, so i felt bad so i ended up sending him some stuff. and then he kept doing that over and over until it became a normal thing between us and everytime i told him no hed threaten to leak my photos n sstuff so i was basically forced to send him stuff, and hed always make rude remarks about how chubby I was and that I should lose some weight and that slowly pushed me into starving myself just to get his approval