I think it's about time I leave my comfort zone and move out but I'm scared financially
Hi. 24 y.o here. For context, 2 years na ako working sa family business namin this end of August. Merchandise yung type of business and we do deliveries around the province.
As a business, ok na ok naman yung income. Pero since yun ang main source ng fam namin nagssweldo ako. My salary is 20k per month tapos commission from my online page na ranging from 5-10k per month. I'm currently living with them (fam business katabing bahay lang din) kaya libre ako sa expenses.
I know I have it good if I just stay put pero parang walang growth. I want to have a space of my own, something of my own but I think I might regret leaving (financial-wise).
I'm not confident with my experience. On paper, parang ang dami kong roles na pwede include since ako talaga pinaka manager sa business namin which includes a lot of roles pero valid ba 'yon for the resume / clients? I tried applying to jobs before naman (as fresh grad) pero either sobrang underpaid or walang nagccallback kaya I accepted the role sa fam business which sounded good at the time.
Aside from wanting something of my own, I'm really considering leaving because of my f4ther. Medyo namemersonal kasi kahit nasa harap kami ng ibang tao. One time hindi ko lang nasagot agad call nya and he barged in sa store while shouting at me. Mind you I was entertaining a big supplier that time so hiyang hiya tuloy ako even 'til now kapag kaharap ko yung supplier.
I feel like there's no room for growth here since parang I just have to do what my family says. Feeling ko lifeless robot na lang ako na pumapasok every day.
Hindi pa nakakatulong na medyo homophobic tatay ko (my mom is accepting, she's partly the only reason bakit I'm sane pa sa bahay). Mas lalong nappush yung idea tuloy sakin na gusto ko ng something of my own kasi gusto ko rin ng safe space.
I already have a moving out fund and emergency fund (250k). Naiipit lang din talaga ako between practicality (magstay dito samin at mag-ipon na lang) and want ko na mas maggrow pa as a person outside this box I call home.
I really want to move out for years now but I just can't seem to financially justify it.
Am I valid or am I just being ungrateful in this economy? And how do I introduce myself to job applications since family-owned yung place of experience ko?