u/skrifflers

downloaded something off of internet archive that came up as safe on virustotal, so either it wasnt, or somehow i magically got malware, but holavpn showed up as a pup in malwarebytes (i have never installed this program), so i got rid of it. i did a 2nd scan afterwards to get rid of it because it showed up again in more detections and malwarebytes told me to restart my laptop, so i did, and now im stuck on a black screen that wont open anything. ive tried opening task manager, ive turned it on and off several times, its just not opening but its running. ive posted this in multiple subreddits but still having no luck.

i downloaded something off of internet archive that came up as safe on virustotal, so either it wasnt, or somehow i magically got malware, but holavpn showed up as a pup in malwarebytes (i have never installed this program), so i got rid of it. i did a 2nd scan afterwards to get rid of it because it showed up again in more detections and malwarebytes told me to restart my laptop, so i did, and now im stuck on a black screen that wont open anything. ive tried opening task manager, ive turned it on and off several times, its just not opening but its running.

I’m not sure how to word any of this right, but I’m gonna try the best I can. I am 16, and I’ve struggled with my mental health since I was about 10. It’s always been kind of rough for me. This didn’t start happening till around 6 months ago, but I’ve been going to bed, and apparently doing things or being awake when I’m certain I’m asleep. For example responding and calling my mother, and I won’t be able to remember any of it. I made a separate post somewhere else about that a while back, and everyone told me it was most likely insomnia or just issues with sleep deprivation because I will sometimes go days without sleeping. But it’s only getting worse for me. Now It’s as if I’m asleep the entire day, and by the time I wake up my mother will tell me I’ve been napping for only around 3ish hours and I had been up earlier and ate lunch with her and talked to her. And I told her I didn’t remember. She told me I needed to sleep more and I’m sick of everyone telling me that. It feels like It’s past “sleep walking” or whatever everyone thinks it is, It’s like I’m not even living my life anymore because I can’t remember what I’m doing anymore. I will check my message history to small texts with people that I don’t remember sending. I’m not asking for a diagnosis, I just want an idea. I don’t know how to look up my situation exactly. I don’t know what I’m meant to be looking for. I hope this makes sense.