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Hello everyone I am sad to say I slipped up and started searching for stuff. I am disappointed in myself for doing it. But now I know that it is possible for me to go for a while without porn. I am not letting the relapse get to me, I stopped right away and became more stricter on my routines. I think taking a break from being active on these communities and less reading caused the slip but it could’ve been other things. I hope you guys can continue your streaks or start your streak! I won’t lose hope! It’s actually exciting to get back into this once again. My brain is trying its hardest to squeeze more content though so I have been busy moving around and occupying myself with other activities to prevent another slip up. Thank you for reading and motivating me!

Hello everyone, its been a few days since my last update, I have stayed porn free for 33 days! It seems like I would’ve never done it this far. The only time I remember making it this far was back when I was in basic military training and couldn’t do it for 8 weeks. It’s been a good journey and I have to thank you guys for your own posts and motivation! I’ve been reading books regarding porn addiction and learning ways to cope with the withdrawal pangs. My mind seems stronger and clearer, at first it was hard finding ways to prevent searching porn but I kept my mind strong and occupied on other activities like reading and working out. Now if I ever have a thought in my head I know it’s just my brain craving for it and I should ignore it or reject the idea of looking at porn. I haven’t had any morning wood despite my streak. I did read there is a side effect of not being able to get hard while you reboot your brain so I hope it is that. I will keep my journey strong and long so that I will eradicate this addiction. Thank you guys for the motivation! It means a lot! Keep up your own streaks too!

Hello everyone! Just checking in! The past days have been rough on me my gf stopped messaging me about 2 weeks ago but now it went to no calls. She still keeps our snapchat streak going. Through my loneliness I have been sad and thinking of self destructive hobbies such as relapsing. I had many urges specifically the past 4 days since she stopped calling. However these urges are not like the ones before. They seem weaker? Like I’m laying in bed about to sleep or I woke up and my mind is telling me “its ok just look at porn you are sad” or “its just one time it won’t hurt” I managed to just ignore the thought and get back to my show or just sleep or go start my day. I know many of us struggle just brushing off the idea of an urge. That was me, it might still be me if it’s a strong urge. But it feels like a good milestone to be able to ignore the thought. For my sad/ self destructive episodes I have been exercising more and more after the workout I feel a whole lot better and keep pushing through. It gives me the happiness and motivation I need. I haven’t been reading for a week now I know I have to keep reading to help me further understand my addiction but I feel like im on the right track I hope I can get out of this! Thank you everyone for your motivation and support! You guys are great! I am here if you guys need anything!

Hello everyone! Just checking in! The past days have been rough on me my gf stopped messaging me about 2 weeks ago but now it went to no calls. She still keeps our snapchat streak going. Through my loneliness I have been sad and thinking of self destructive hobbies such as relapsing. I had many urges specifically the past 4 days since she stopped calling. However these urges are not like the ones before. They seem weaker? Like I’m laying in bed about to sleep or I woke up and my mind is telling me “its ok just look at porn you are sad” or “its just one time it won’t hurt” I managed to just ignore the thought and get back to my show or just sleep or go start my day. I know many of us struggle just brushing off the idea of an urge. That was me, it might still be me if it’s a strong urge. But it feels like a good milestone to be able to ignore the thought. For my sad/ self destructive episodes I have been exercising more and more after the workout I feel a whole lot better and keep pushing through. It gives me the happiness and motivation I need. I haven’t been reading for a week now I know I have to keep reading to help me further understand my addiction but I feel like im on the right track I hope I can get out of this! Thank you everyone for your motivation and support! You guys are great! I am here if you guys need anything!

Hello everyone!

I started this Journey after my gf and I had a break from communication after she found out I kept lying about staying clean and telling her all the truth so I wouldn’t lie to her anymore. I have officially been clean for 12 days and feel like it’s a strong start. I have been reading a lot of books and listening to podcast that are helpful for quitting porn. I always get a small itch when i’m in bed trying to sleep my mind is like “we should just take a peek, one second won’t hurt, or I can use this as exposure therapy.” I used exposure therapy before and my gf got mad at me. I understand her discomfort for it. I have been changing subjects on my mind I have started meditating to strengthen my mind. If the urge or thoughts are too strong I think about my girlfriend, in pain, on floor crying heartbroken, I devastated her and hurt her so bad. I destroyed her self-esteem and confidence. I’m doing this for our relationship as well as for myself I did promise her even if she leaves me I will work on myself because I want to purge this horrible second life. I started working out again and hydrating way more. I’ve enjoyed reading once again and have taken my job responsibilities more seriously. I want to improve as a human in total. I also quit alcohol because it always makes me think about porn or sexual thoughts. I have been going to the pool and I’m proud to say I am no longer looking at women and sexualizing them. I think it’s a huge improvement I was disgusted by myself because I was not raised to sexualize women. I keep continuing to be strong. I hope all of you guys are also doing great on your journeys! Let’s make keep this no porn June streak going!

Thank you for reading! You guys are my motivation and inspiration!

Hello everyone! I’ve had the same back story that a lot of people have had (early porn exposure, constantly doing it, etc.) along with my addiction having some factor in my unfaithfulness to my girlfriend. I am extremely remorseful about it and she has been supportive until recently when I kept relapsing. It was a mind opener of my addiction when I checked my bank statements and saw that I sent around $4,000 in subscriptions and other websites in the span of 2 years. I’ve been reading Your Brain on Porn and have learned new things. I mainly want to post after all this anxiety of posting to actually become accountable and display my progress in quitting. I hope we can support each other in our journey. I have dedicated the month of June (No Goon June) to be a 0 masturbation and porn month so far it’s the 7th day and I have been feeling good. It’s the urges that scare me, if you guys can share what you guys do to combat the urges I would appreciate it. I usually go outside my room because thats where my urges happen. It helps but sometimes the urge is too strong it becomes uncomfortable.

Thank you!

I’m posting here after thinking a lot about it and reading other posts and experiences. I want to disclose my addiction and start holding myself accountable.

Its the same story you’ve seen multiple times, puberty hits and you masturbate so much that you get so addicted and your brain remembers that stimulation and craves more of it. I have reason to believe that some of my porn addiction led me to cheat on my girlfriend 3 times through our relationship. It’s not a scapegoat and I’m sure there are other reasons I still have to discover through therapy. What I did was horrible and I am sickened that I hurt the person I love the most. The reason I say that my addiction is some of the reason I cheated is my brain loves the novelty and new experiences of new women. I used onlyfans and after counting all the bank statements I spend around $4,000 in 2 years but never realized I had a problem since I always thought it was normal. I would also use cam to cam porn sites and AI porn. My girlfriend discovered all my secrets in February and decided to stay and help me as long as I stay in the right path. During the first 2 months of recovery and trying my best there have been lots of relapses and I would hide it from my girlfriend. It was only that earlier this year I felt sick to my stomach with the constant lying I did to her that I confessed every relapse I had while I told her I was changing. While I was researching I was also relapsing. She decided she couldn’t bear the pain and left me. We still talk a little and I still update her with my progress. I told her once my addiction came out that I will quit and change my life even if she was not in my life because I don’t want this anymore.

I didn’t post this for sympathy but for help. I also want to see if anyone wants to create an accountability group chat where we can motivate each other to stay accountable and stay strong. I have tested raw will power and realized it requires more than that to recover from an addiction.

Thank you for reading and helping!