u/sludgwav

i was with this guy for a few months who was a classic narcissist. he would use and discard me at a moment’s notice, i was never fully good enough for him to call me his girlfriend, he controlled the things i did and who i saw, he manipulated me into spending almost $1000 on him in pokemon cards barely a month into the “relationship”. it was bad.

when we “broke up” (because again, never good enough to officially be his girlfriend), suddenly things changed. he suddenly had tons of time for me, he was desperate to get me back “but just as friends” because he “understood that i wanted to move on” but he also made sure i knew he would “always wait for me to be ready to come back to him. it kept me in a loop with him for almost a year after the breakup where he would still have me basically at his beck-and-call.

i ended up moving across the state to get away from him and blocked him on everything, but ever since then my dreams have been about him tracking me down and trying to reconcile again. and the worst part is i think if he did track me down (which he could do, because he learned super quickly where i had moved to), i don’t think i could be firm enough to tell him to get lost. i miss him a lot. i miss the good times we had and the deep talks, i miss how cute he is when he wants to be, and he was basically my dream guy physically. i’m in therapy and also seeing a psychiatrist to deal with what he did to me, and i know how he treated me was terrible.

so why do i miss him so much?

This sub might not be the correct place for this question but I couldn’t find one that fit better so please direct me to the correct sub if this is the wrong place!

I am 34 AFAB. My dailies are aripiprazole 25mg, duloxetine 60mg (as a 40mg capsule and a 20mg capsule for 60 combined), levothyroxine 25mcg, and birth control (I don’t know the generic/formula but the name brand is Yaz). I also take PRN albuterol 90-80mcg, lorazepam 0.5mg, and hydroxyzine 25mg.

My situation is this: I have panic disorder (F41.0), as diagnosed by both my current psychiatrist and a previous PCP. My current PCP has me diagnosed with GAD (F41.1), which is incorrect, and anxiolytic dependence (F13.2), which I believe is due to the GAD dx. I have mentioned to her a couple of times, including in my first appointment, that it’s panic disorder and not GAD, but it is still listed as GAD in my chart.

What’s the best way to bring this up so that my PCP will listen to me and change the diagnosis? Is it a limitation of her EMR (Epic)? Beyond my perturbation, it even worth bringing up?

Thank you!

i hope this doesn’t break the rules because i’m not asking for medical advice, just dialogue advice.

i have panic disorder, not GAD. my psychiatrist has the correct diagnosis on file but my pcp has GAD as my diagnosis.

what’s the best way to go about getting it changed with my pcp? should i bring documentation from my psychiatrist to her? should i message her about it or wait until my next appointment in june?