feel like a bit of a loser
Currently 26 going for a degree in Sociology for my major. I tried college during COVID and it wasn’t working out for me, so I chose to work full-time instead and save money. Once I started to college however, my savings practically disappeared due to necessities but also some needless things which I’ve now cut out.
I work a job during the summer as well as during the schooling period, but not being able to save as much as I like also makes me feel this way.
I also accept money from my parents to help out with food but still hate to do so, even if they don’t care. I have an immense amount of support which I’m forever grateful for, and I let them know that.
Outside of college however, I don’t expect or want to accept any more support from my parents after I’m able to pay for myself, as I don’t want to continue feeling like a leech.
Comparison is the thief of joy, but I know there are people ahead of me in life that are independent and have well-paying jobs already, and that’s what i strive for as well.
Only thing that doesn’t make me feel this way is the fact that I’m actually trying to get out on my own, make my own money, and go out and work, but even still that seems like a bare minimum to me.
My parents have said that I’ve gotten more mature and independent, but I can’t see that myself. I’m wondering if I’m being too hard on myself or if I do need to step it up a bit.
Another thing that I hear is that, “success has its own timeline,” but I don’t want to use that as an excuse to cut myself any slack.
As long as I continue trying my best, I suppose that is enough for some, but even still it doesn’t feel like enough to me.
I don’t know what I’m necessarily expecting from typing all of this out, but I guess that’s what this subreddit is for; getting stuff off your chest.
Anyway, I hope all of you have a great day and focus on improving your life as the future comes.