I feel so far gone and like theres no return for me
I got nobody to really speak to about this shit in my life. T ruined me. I got life threateningly bad acne at the start of my transition which scarred my face to hell and back. And then it fucked my hair and scalp up, I developed non typical baldness (random patches of hairless+thinning) that isn't being fixed by anything and I ain't got the money to get a hair transplant. Not even talking about the rare as fuck complication and disease I got in my bones now; directly linked to me having been on T.
Im fat, disabled, balding, face scarred to shit, just thing attempting to exist and failing at it. I so desperately want to be seen as the butch lesbian I used to be but idk im very much realising that isnt possible anymore. Idk if I should just give up and go back on testosterone and take the L.
Is there anyone else that like. Realizes they arent ever going to be able to detrans? Or is there any other balding people here who are struggling with all this shit. I need to stop comparing myself to the younger, prettier people than me here, i know but 💀💀💀💀 i wish there was more from people who were actually profoundly affected by testosterone that i could relate to