u/smallmonzter

I don’t know what to do. I went outside to say goodbye to my son, maybe three minutes, and when I came back in my year and a half old GSP had attacked and killed my daughter’s cat. He’s not been friends with the cats to this point but this never seemed plausible. He’s my best friend but I don’t feel like I can keep him. We have another cat and a smaller dog. He gets along with the dog fine. I’m destroyed. I don’t know what to do.

I recently called my local Dodge/Jeep/Ram dealership parts department to ask for a transmission filter. The guy at the parts department asked “how many miles do you have on it?” to which I stated 76,000 and it was due for service which I would do on my own. He told me never to do that because the “transmission is permanently sealed and never has to have the fluid and filter changed as long as the truck is still running.” I’m assuming this is wrong and I should never go back to this place. I did change the fluid and filters by the way.

I replaced one of my wife’s hard boiled eggs with an uncooked egg. Which one? Indeed….

I have been considering starting Reta. I’ve been chasing body recomp for a couple years now and have made dramatic changes. But I have reservations before I start.

Background:

45yo M, I went from 265 to under 190 at my lowest weight (at 5’ 10”.) over the last two years. I’m currently sitting around 18% body fat at 200 pounds. Made that with just diet and weight lifting. I’m the strongest I’ve ever been. I bench around 450-460 on a good day.

I’m currently on Test. 200mg/week split to two doses. Test was legit low, under 100. Also on Tesa.

I’m concerned about anhedonia. I have heard stories about losing interest or pleasure in things. I’m specifically concerned about the sexual side of that. I don’t want to lose what I have with my wife. We’re in a great place and it took some effort to get here.

I also don’t want to commit to a lifelong program of pinning with something additional to what I already have due to cost, convenience, and potential future availability.

My plan is to start VERY low and go very slow. I’m very disciplined and have the ability to manage this.

My rationale for wanting to start is that I have STRUGGLED with body comp since I was a kid pretty much. The food noise in my head is CRAZY. I am never not hungry, never not thinking about my next meal. I think Reta may help both of these.

Additionally I am aware of the neuro cognitive effects and general longevity effects which is another world I chase.

Any insights would be helpful. Hope this is not too much to read. Thanks.