u/smsmrizik

You can check my past posts for more context but I am beyond burnt out,Im constantly tired and either on edge or completely numb and dissociated,im also suicidal and even attempted about two weeks ago,urges through the roof but cant relapse bc summer. I wanna reach out to my friends to my therapist to anyone who I normally trust,but Paranoia and trust issues have been really bad,thearpy and meds aren't really helping and im even dabbling in other coping mechanisms. College is fucking me up bc I keep putting off studying bc I feel unwell,but I always do,I can barley do shit im so tired

Im digonsed with bpd and ptsd (my psychiatrist is checking if I fit the criteria better for cptsd) and I genuinely feel like all of my skills have gotten worse with time,at 20 and turning 21 i feel much dumber than my peers and much more childish, even physically my body feels like its constantly heavy and falling apart even when tests show nothing is wrong and even when I was at the gym 4 times a week. I feel like a child who cant do anything. I just sleep all the time and cant study or foucs. Ive suffered from mental health issues since Jan 2019 and got dignosed last year and put on meds and i am in therapy but it feels like I am falling apart at the seams,can anyone genuinely relate ?

Im so tired,im starting exams in a bit and I cant study,everytime I try to touch any of my assignments I panic and just dont submit them,I can barely stay awake as well,not to mention dissociating,urges to relapse and being suicidal,even if i dont relapse in cutting ive been finding other stupid additions to dable in,my meds aren't helping,and thearpy isn't too bc I feel to paranoid about everyone and everything,my psychiatrist dismissed me as just regular stress and switched me to a new antidepressants,not to mention hallucinations,them being audible visual and sensory. Im falling apart at the seams and no one seems to care and nothing is helping What the fuck do i do with myself

Ive been in thearpy for a year and had a recent failed attempt,although Im honset that im suicidal I have never really talked about my attempts in fear of being admitted,so what should I do do i be honest or? And how do you handle this bc im lost and dont wanna talk about it to ppl who are close to me

I took 60 mg of codeine and 1.5 mg of xanax and i cant see stright, feel my arms or legs and o feel really drowsy help helpI didn't know those meds where so bad to mix up ejay should I do Edit its now a couple of hours later and im doing alright just a stomach ache and still a tad bit dizzy but other than that im alright

Im having severe nerve pain from cuts that are 3 months old,(suspecting nerve damdge too) I cant go to the doctors rn but I need tips on how to calm the pain bc im having a really bad flare up right now please help me

This is the first time ive had sm like this happen to me in the 7 years of cutting,these specific scars are three months old on my left bicep but they hurt so fucking bad despite being fully healed, sometimes even making me clench my whole arm bc of how much pain I am in,usually the pain in for a month max and then just itching so did anyone also experience this ? Im suspect it might be nerve damage but have no way to confirm