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Ok so this is what I do since personally I am also afraid of thunderstorms. In my country, afternoon to early evening is when we get thunderstorms the most active. I’m scared of them because of how intense they are in my country. The best solution personally for me is I always go to malls. I leave as early as possible from my house. Inside the mall I literally hear nothing from the thunderstorms. I wait for them to taper down and when I know that the coast is clear since I have them scheduled out in my head in my country I go back home and I usually always get the accurate results within my research based on my own observations. Good luck guys!

Hello. Did anyone receive their email na regarding the results from the previous UST salinggawi audition held last June 6-7? It’s been more than 7 days and I still haven’t received mine yet😅😅😅they also sent my first email regarding the auditions late. Come on, where’s the work here…

Before I get into the post, I just wanted to say na I have friends naman. Sadyang ganito lang talaga yung trato ng araw sakin lol.

It was the last day of school, my last day of my first year in UST. UST was the school I dreamt of getting into. I’ve made so many connections and have learned a lot throughout my stay here. I have accomplished a few achievements which have helped my status and reputation a lot. I am thankful for the things that have happened to me in this school, good or bad. It shaped me to become the person I am today. I was finally excited to reach my last day of school as a freshman so I can finally check it off my bucket list na I’m officially a Thomasian without being an irregular student. One of my big goals in life fr, I made it.

After our last exam, me and my friends ate inside a restaurant. We celebrated and it was just a short one pero I was thankful for the company because I’d rather spend it with people than spend it alone. They’ve been my day ones since first sem palang and I’m thankful they’ve been with me through thick and thin, literally. Afterwards, I went out na because I was too tired and wanted to rest. So nagpaalam ako na I have to go back to my dorm so I can unwind and reflect on my year. I also needed to visit my boyfriend after who’s in the same building as me so yeah lol. But during that, I managed to sit down near the UST Tiger area and took a quick look at my surroundings. Actually, yung time na yun nurses ata or a course related to that were graduating. Upon seeing them, I wanted to break down. You know why? They were all with their family and I realized na I haven’t had a proper celebration with my family in years because of a broken relationship with them. My mom and brother are in Europe because they’re spending time with my brother’s girlfriend and during that moment I wanted to breakdown because I wish she got to spend it with me. Kahit simple meal lang around UST na cheap just to celebrate my last day.

Now I know I haven’t been a good daughter but I have tried my best to make up for the shit I’ve done. Also the heat was an addition for me wanting to break down but the heavy feelings regarding what I have just said also played a major factor for that lol. Not to mention na hindi ko pa din nahahardlaunch yung boyfriend ko sa mom ko so there’s another heartbreak for me. But luckily in the middle of this there was this group of friends who randomly approached me to ask if they could take a picture for them sa harap ng UST Tiger statue. That kinda distracted me. After nun I just walked back to my school building to hang out with my boyfriend a bit and went back to my dorm.

I started freshman year filled with uncertainty but determination and finished freshman year with heartbreaks and determination parin. At least I checked something in my bucket list.

Sometimes I feel guilty for feeling this way but sometimes I don’t because I actually have reasons to feel this way. I still feel suicidal in this lifetime of mine when I started seeing good things sprout in the corners of my current timeline. Reason being are some people around me. Yes, I’ve been seeing my prayers getting answered but half of them aren’t getting answered. Half of those unanswered prayers would be my brother. It’s always him. He always gets the spotlight while I’m kinda just there. He takes things first before I could even confirm my priorities. This is why I’m slowly losing faith in God cause tell me why the homilies I’ve been to keep telling me not to lose faith yet every damn day I’m struck with fear and hopelessness while my brother gets to thrive and live life. Other prayers answered weren’t even really answered fully, like me getting into my dream college but not making any deep connections… which is all I want.