u/song_101

a couple days ago me and my mom got into an argument because of my cousin, who just so happens to be trans, she misgendered him the entire time, said he was doing it for attention, and kept talking about how she changed his diaper when he was younger, and that was her argument as to why she could call him a girl, she keeps bringing up how he sometimes wears skirts and nail polish, and is dating a guy, she said that “he’s living like a girl, so I can’t respect him”, she says all the time that she’s supportive of trans people, and i want to believe her, but every time she brings up trans people, it’s usually negative, and everytime i point it out, she talks about how she had a trans friend, so she couldn’t be transphobic, i havent come out yet mainly because of this reason, i also dress pretty femininely even though im a trans guy, she said she’d always support me, but i dont know if she would accept me if i told her, someone please tell me what i should do

so im a trans guy and i support everyone and cheer as many people on as i can when they come out, but then when i see something that reminds me of my OWN gender identity and how I feel, i get uncomfortable and I try to stop thinking about it otherwise i get these weird feelings in my stomach, does this mean anything? am i a bad person?