Impostor syndrome - bipolar
Hello everyone! I have bipolar disorder, and today my psychiatrist signed me off work because I’m really not doing well (I went from mania into a deep depression). I can’t work, I can barely even get out of bed, and I cry all the time. And for some reason, I feel guilty.
I’m scared people will think I’m faking it (even though I know perfectly well that nobody would give me medical leave if it weren’t real), but sometimes even I wonder: what if this is all fake?
I feel bad for my coworkers, who suddenly lost someone they could rely on from one day to the next, and I feel bad for going through this at all. Has anyone else ever felt this way? Is this kind of impostor syndrome common with mental illness?
If I had broken a leg, I probably wouldn’t feel any of this😟