u/strawb-bunny_

hiii can everyone hop on pixel painters right now !! k really wanna play it for the sake of nostalgia, but theres literally 0 people on it

im about to give the mdcat in a month, honestly doing medical has sort of been a dream of mine but mainly only to make my parents proud

its more their dream than it is mine, i do have a lot of interest in biology and chemistry tho

im very talented when it comes to art, my whole life everyone around me except my parents have been urging me to pursue arts and do something creative

and i feel as if id be happier pursuing something creative as well

but i worry about my future a lot

what do i do ?

do i go for mbbs or do i go for arts n fashion ?

what's the best decision from a money making standpoint as well ?

hiii!! i, 18F, have been dating my boyfriend, 18M, for almost 2 years now

hes absolutely perfect, he completely gets me, he does the silliest cutest things for me and knows exactly how to make me happy

hes really smart, supportive and loving as well

so me and him started dating and at that time he was quite fit, went to the gym a ton and took lots of care of himself,

unfortunately a few months later he had to move away really far but i didnt mind going long distance with him ( however the long distance does sometimes get to me as well )

due to stress because of exams and some other stuff going on in his life he stopped going to the gym and taking care of himself, due to this hes gotten really really fat

and this summer we finally met after MONTHS and he just wasnt the same person anymore physically

i knew what he looked like obviously, we would video call everyday but the fatter he got the more insecure he got and hed show me his appearance less and less

it just felt so weird even to just hug him or be close to his face, i feel really guilty to admit this but i just wasnt physically attracted to him at all

i do love him sososo much and hes talked about him gaining weight as well and how hes gonna lose it all etc, but he never does

instead of feeling butterflies and blushing or whatever when meeting him after so long, i just felt guilty, weird and uneasy looking at him

i dont know what to do, i feel selfish and as if im leading him on due to what I'm feeling