u/superfluoustragedy

bruh where can i microwave my food that’s not the library or the commons now that they killed the uc!?

This is something that is really shocking me to my core and I don’t know how to feel. Maybe some of you guys have gone through something similar, I’d like to know how you went about things.

In January, we got a new coworker. I was immediately drawn to him. I don’t know how to explain it, I just wanted to know everything about him.

Long story short, by March we had had a couple of drunken hookups. I didn’t want anything serious out of him, I liked what we were doing but didn’t want more. Despite this I still enjoyed being around him just because of who he was. So rowdy, funny, and wild. Anyways, one night we are out with some coworkers and we were hiding in a corner talking, he tells me a friend of his (who HE was infatuated with) had encountered a rough patch and she’s coming to stay with him.

There are a lot more details, however I feel like the vagueness is worth it more than the context. Sorry.

But that was pretty much it. By the end of March she was moved in and they were together and I was mad at him and myself for being played. I should never have done the things I did, they are so out of character for me. I’ve really been feeling a type of way about myself since this all happened. All that to say is I have mixed emotions about him because he played me, but we were never anything and I enjoyed him as a friend and a coworker. So I just tried to move on.

Three weeks ago some stuff happened and he stopped working at my job. And then we get the call that he’s gone. Just like that. I’m so confused, I have so many questions. And my mind can’t help but go to things I wish it wouldn’t.

Like I feel like he just whisked in my life and all of a sudden he’s gone just as soon as he was there. I don’t know how to feel or what to do. Hell day by day how I felt about him changed after that situation. Despite that I really wanted him to succeed and life, and I saw it for him.

No one knows what happened, just that he’s gone. I have to go into work today, where no one knows about any of this. I can’t even explain to them why I’m so devastated. My mind is just going in a million places at once. I don’t know what to do.

Edit: The missing context is what makes me feel the way I do about the situation, and I do in fact feel like I was done dirty. There is no point in hashing that out anymore though. This post wasn’t about that. I appreciate all of the encouraging comments. Thank you.